Who's feeling good?! You feeling good!? I know I am!
Its all about attitude, right, homies?
Ok but for real, how am I really doing? Let me just take a breath and pause and ask myself that question...
I miss The Cities.
Concrete towers have turned into towering trees.
Dirty pigeons, into chubby chipmunks.
Netflix, into morning hikes.
and Facebook and Facetime, into.... well, actual face time. With humans. Gross, right?
Well, I saw a bear tonight too.
Anyhoo, besides the normal flecks of homesickies anyone away from home experiences, Colorado is treating me mighty well. The air here is so clean and so crisp and the mountains and ridges get me every morning. Its been so rainy these past couple weeks though. If you havent been keeping track of me on facebook, check out this weather update I posted a few days ago:
In case any of you havent been updated on Colorado's flooding: Denver apparently got 18 inches of rain in the past two days. The rivers have expanded into lakes. The ground is deeply saturated and cars are underwater. 4 people have been reported dead so far and about 170 people are missing. We had a massive mudslide roll through the base up here about 2 weeks ago. I wasnt here yet but luckily nothing up here (atleast not to my knowledge) was damaged besides like, a whole trail of forest. But just to let everyone know, I'm safe. The base is all good. Its just nice and muddy up here. I'll update you again tonight! Stay safe, 'Merica.
Since then... yeah, its still raining everyday. I myself havent even had much update on the condition of Denver... because we kind of live up in the mountains. No biggy. The recent deaths of (insert creepy number here) mice in our living space in the past 2 weeks is the current news up here. Speaking of which, I may have one to get rid of as soon as I'm done here.
Hey. Here's a cool snippit of lecture that I've been wanting to share with you guys this week...
If any of you know who Jim Arguel is, he's been hanging out with us this week. Behind those wrinkly, aged eyes is a whole lot of wisdom.
I'll try to explain the best way I can...
Basically, he compared the humans' though process to a massive semi truck. The front nose of the truck, in a way, resembles human intellect. The steering wheel resembles the will of our heart. and the trailer resembles emotion.
Have you ever seen a massive semi truck cruising down the interstate backwards? It's obviously not ok, right? It's dangerous. Don't try this at home.
Well, in reality, we tend to do that sometimes. Especially us women. (I'm not saying women are bad drivers! Just listen!) People tend to drive their thought process backwards; emotions come first, then their will of heart, then their intellect or reasoning. When this happens, it sounds a bit like this:
- I feel so gross right now, who would even want to be around me?
- I feel like he's ignoring me. Do you think he's mad at me?
- I think my kids hate me. I feel like they just don't appreciate me.
- I feel like this is just too overwhelming right now, get out of my face.
- You dont even understand me.
Turn your truck around!
- Let your reasoning come first. Is he (or she, whatever) REALLY mad at you? Do they REALLY hate you? Maybe you misunderstand them as much as you feel they misunderstand you? Is it REALLY all that too much? or do you just need an attitude change? TURN AROUND! What do you KNOW is true? What is reality? Let's re-think this the right way.
- Then, let the will of your heart come next. (Hopefully your will is in alignment with the will of God! Get that ready first.) Again, do this with a good attitude. Let what you know is truth win. If you must outwardly react, do it the right way. Not the way you feel like doing it.
- Finally, let your emotions be a REACTION to the process or a reaction to the outcome instead of getting all choked up on how they may have deceived you and directed you.
What you "feel" doesn't change anything. I might feel suddenly that "my team mates hate my guts, I just slow everything down." but that doesnt make it so. I know from my intellect and in my heart that we need eachother and that if we have an issue, we work it out and get right with eachother, know what I mean?
I hope you guys understand that. Its just a little lesson in being mindful. Honestly, this changed my entire perspective. I can probably say this here changed my life. It changed my entire though process for the good. I have struggled with letting my emotions have the best of me for so long, you guys!!! This is healing. It really is.
What are times that you need to be mindful of your emotions?
How have you let your emotions drive an assumption or even a rumor?
Questions? Comments? Concerns? Contact me.
Anyhoo,
Its time for bed here. The rain is pouring down like crazy and the lightning is vicious out there but I have to run to my room and go to bed! Eventful rest-of-the-week ahead of me.
Just a heads up: My dad's 3 year anniversary of his death is coming up on Friday. Pray for me. My heart sinks and I kind of go emotionally numb around this time. Sometimes I close up and get quiet. But processing is good. and Jesus knows my heart. So yeah... Thanks guys. Let's celebrate that man.
Okay, goodnight world.
-G
